Mab of Dream

I really should mention the fact that it's Autumn Equinox at the moment.

I personally start celebrating that at sunset on Sept 20th through to sunset on Sept 21st; though this year, I think Sunday (19th) and my activities that day pretty much cover most of the celebrations - messing around with ivy; gardening; sorting through pictures; drinking wine; canting with FT Kate about where I am with the whole HPS thing etc. I did do a little rite on the night of the 20th too.

However it's actually today when the equinox happens - ie the day and night are equal. Antartica sees its first bit of sun; if you stand at the equator at noon, you can't see your own shadow etc. After this, it all starts getting darker.

I was going to write a long blog about where I am right now, but I'll continue the REM theme with 'Walk Unafraid' instead:

as the sun comes up, as the moon
goes down
these heavy notions creep around
it makes me think
long ago I was brought into
this life a little lamb
a little lamb
courageous, stumbling
fearless was my middle name.
but somewhere there I
lost my way
everyone walks the same
expecting me to step
the narrow path they've laid
they claim to
walk unafraid
I'll be clumsy instead
hold my love me or leave me
high.

say 'keep within the boundaries if you want
to play.'
say 'contradiction only makes it harder.'
how can I be
what I want to be?
when all I want to do is strip away
these stilled constraints

and crush this charade
shred this sad masquerade
I don't need no persuading
I'll trip, fall, pick myself up and
walk unafraid
I'll be clumsy instead
hold my love me or leave me
high.

if I have a bag of rocks to carry as I go
I just want to hold my head up high
I don't care what I have to step over
I'm prepared to look you in the eye
look me in the eye
and if you see familiarity
then celebrate the contradiction
help me when I fall to
walk unafraid
I'll be clumsy instead
hold my love me or leave me
high.
walk unafraid
I'll be clumsy instead
hold my love me or leave me
high.

I think that the upshot is that I've done my year in the spotlight and now I'm going to be me instead.

yours
Mab
xxxxx